It’s okay to lock yourself in the medicine cabinet,
to drink all the wine, to do what it takes to stay
without staying. It’s okay to hate God today
to change his name to yours, to want to ruin all that ruined you.
It’s okay to feel like only a photograph of yourself,
to need a stranger to pull your hair and pin you down,
it’s okay to want your mother as you lie alone in bed.
It’s okay to break to fuck to flame to church to crush to knife
to rock and rock and rock and rock and rock and rock.
It’s okay to wave goodbye to yourself in the mirror.
To write, ‘I don’t want anything.’
It’s okay to despise what you have inherited,
to feel dead in a city of pulses. It’s okay
to be the whale that never comes up for air,
to love best the taste of your own blood.
Zach’s ability to stay positive and preserver through everything is so inspiring; just a forewarning for you guys this is a long video and I guarantee once you start watching it you won’t be able to stop. RIP Zach, I found your story truly inspiring and you seemed to be such a phenomenal person.